How can I be more easygoing without getting burnt?

Wow, I feel like I'm going through a very similar thing. And trust me, drugs don't make anything better. They're just for killing time. They don't really make you feel better. At least after you're sober they don't. I always feel like the one thing I could use is some "real" people, and not the mes of strange people that I'm around everyday. So maybe that is also what might help you.